I have come to accept that some of my insecurities, both personal and circumstantial, may never go away or get easier to deal with, no matter how many Bible verses I know, or how many prayers I pray, or how much fellowship support I may receive. I say this because after all my years of life in Christ, some of them remain just as stubbornly set as a clothing stain that has resisted countless washings.
That’s the good news! Because I am also discovering that as my relationship with Him grows and deepens, it becomes easier to face my insecurities when they “rear their ugly heads.” Though they still can deliver an emotional punch, I do not double over in pain. Though they haunt me in the middle of the night, I do not pull the covers over my head in fear. Though they shout out my failures, I do not shrink away in shame. I do not accept the toxic, debilitating messages they deliver. Instead, I am increasingly able to be confidently vulnerable with the Lord and receive His care and treatment. I hear and believe what He thinks about me in Christ. How He sees me. How He feels about me. Me physically, emotionally, financially, spiritually, and mentally.
In a paradox, my insecurities have helped me grow more secure in Him, which is a much better deal than not having them at all. That is why the apostle Paul wrote these words regarding his own insecurities: “I would rather boast about my weaknesses so that the power of Christ may rest on me… For when I am weak, then I am strong” (2 Corinthians 12:9-10). Like Paul, I am divinely secure despite my human insecurities. Like Paul, I am divinely secure despite my human insecurities.
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